Friday, February 02, 2007
3 days no online le.
so damn tired.
work work work.
i'm so hardworking ah! HAHA!
i must be mad. so many things i want to say.
but i can't tell you.
cause, you will be mad at me if i do.
so, i can only say it here.
i really don't like it when
you put her photo on your msn.
i've never seen you put my photo on your msn.
if you really love me, no matter what you do
i will be your piority.
putting a girl's msn pic should be
me and not her.
but then, i'm not your 1st girlfriend
so i'll never be the first.
i don't like it when you use the song
she sent you as your handphone ringtone.
i feel like you love her more than me.
i've downloaded so many songs for you
to listen but you only chose her song as your ringtone.
but, as long as you like, i also can't say anything.
and you know that time, when i asked you, who is more pretty.
your answer was her. that was the time.
i start to think. if i'm not pretty.
why do you still want me?
everytime when others ask if my boyfriend was handsome,
my answer would be a yes right away.
i don't even need to think.
i can tell you that i'm also not
afraid of telling others about our past.
i'm proud that i have you.
i'm so happy that i can't wait to tell
n share with everyone about my joy.
about being with you.
i can't wait for the day you marry me.
now, u make me feel so bad until
i don't know if it's the right choice if i maary you.
but you? what did you ever do?
did you ever feel proud about having me?
did you every felt so happy that you want to
jump and shout and tell the whole world that
you love me?
you just can't feel what i feel.
you are even willing to give up gunbound for her.
i was waiting or so long.
waiting for you to give up gunbound.
but now, she was the one who make
you want to give it up.
i wonder, is it cos i always choose the
wrong time or because of her.
i never really did make you give up gunbound.
i always failed.
now, she said she's sick of gunbound
and you also feel sick as well.
is it pure coincidence or
i don't understand you at all?
you make me feel that
you can do anything for her.
but nothing for me.
mayb cause you've done too much.
you don't know what to do for me anymore.
or maybe you've really got sick of me.
now i feel so sad.
you should know that i really love you.
every part of you.
i know these few days i was doing things
to irritate you.
i showed you attitude,
i shouted at you.
you know why?
all i wanted was you.
i want your everything.
i can't share you with others.
i was desperate.
i don't know how to get you back.
i just want to be with you forever.
i know. i'm sounding kind of stupid now.
cause, it's like impossible.
i really have no idea of how to get you back.
ever since everything happened,
my brain can't seem to think about you properly.
all the anger and jealously had covered my love for you.
i'm so sorry. i really never meant to do it.
i know i'm just a spoiled kid.
maybe you feel so sick of me cause you always got to comfort me first,
you always have to be the one to give in to me.
i know what i did to you in the past.
i know you will never forget what i put u through.
i know that i also won't forget wad i did.
i'll always feel so sorry n guilty.
if one day, you still can remember what i did to you very clearly
and you can't forgive me.
all i can do is to do as u wish.
as long as are happy,
i'm willing to do anything for you.
you should know it very well.
i just hope, someday we can be back together again.
just like the past.
with all our happy memories.
love you forever. you know i always do.
♥Reminiscents of dark chocolates♥
