Thursday, July 31, 2008
suffering from dehydration again.
drank abit more than i usually drink ytd.
was quite bother abt smth since afternoon.
hubby asked me to go hospital with him.
heard that his grandma was in serious condition.
they need to be mentally prepared.
didnt wana go.
tot of my own grandma.
abt 8 years ago.
been trying to avoid.
n everytime this type of thing happens to me,
i cant help but think of the past n future.
wad if 1 day my parents?
wad if 1 day my sisters?
how would i feel?
wad would i do?
some say i think too much.
cos it's part n parcel of life.
but i dun really think that im thinking too much.
anyway, i rejected hubby on going to visit his grandma.
felt so bad till i couldn't sleep in the afternoon.
after dat went to hush.
call hubby on the way there.
quite worried as he didnt sms me at all since he reached there.
told me his cried. felt even worse.
it's my own fault.
i wasn't by his side when he needed me most.
like ultra-down.
started work n i didn't wana bother abt it.
so i just work n work n work.
drink n drink n drink.
dun wana think so much.
like 借酒消凑.
drank 1 out of 9 jugs of beer with a group of cust.
after that went to look for stella.
she's working at a new pub now.
called mansions. the old waiting bar.
went down n had a pint of heineken.
after that went to dbl o to look for my bros.
darrell n mario aka fei zhai n ah pui.
had free bak kut teh. on the house.
den went down to dragonfly.
duno y ah pui always like to sit at those crowded place.
fei zhai n me went to the bar behind the stage n had a jug of beer.
played dice n some scissors paper stone game.
after that we left at around 5am.
shared cab n asked him to get receipt for me to claim.
now im still thinking on my hubby's next visit.
wana go with him anot?
dun have much time to think anyway.
so erm. haiz . . .
♥Reminiscents of dark chocolates♥
